I have been feeling so overwhelmed lately. Like there's not enough of me to go around, and slowly piece by piece I'm starting to fall apart. I have too much on my plate right now. Do you ever feel like you have WAY TO MUCH to think about which makes it impossible to REALLY think about anything at all? That's where I'm at right. 100's of thought are flying around in my head-crashing and colliding, but nothing is making sense.
So I'm venting...
It helps really...I should have done this days ago.
School is taking much more time that I can really afford right now, at least that's what it feels like. Never having enough time makes things that I should enjoy seem like burdens. I'm sort-of freaking out if you couldn't already tell.
Here's a few of the jumbled thoughts in my head...
-Tonight's sociology mid-term. I want to be done taking tests. I'm tired of tests.
-Last nights math test that I bombed.
-The fact that I was stuck in a testing center for HOURS while my husband was home scrambling to make dinner, dress kids for trunk or treating, and go to the store to buy candy once he realized we had NONE in the house. (Halloween is NOT my holiday. I was so lame this year and didn't even get candy bought before the trick-or-treater's started showing up, or kids costumes figured out) Thank goodness for a super husband and helping kiddos.
-There are massive amounts of chocolate in my home as we speak-bowls and bags stashed in every corner. I want to EAT all of it. The only thing holding me back is that NONE of it actually belongs to me. My resolve will most likely be short lived. Curse you, Halloween! I think I hate you, sort-of.
-There are massive amounts of chocolate in my home as we speak-bowls and bags stashed in every corner. I want to EAT all of it. The only thing holding me back is that NONE of it actually belongs to me. My resolve will most likely be short lived. Curse you, Halloween! I think I hate you, sort-of.
-Todd's baptism...It's Saturday. I'm not ready. I have no cute picture of him in his handsome suit. I've done NONE of the things I normally do. I don't have the food bought or planned. My brain can't come up with a menu to save my life. How hard is it? Duh, this is NOT rocket science. I simply don't have time to think about it. Help me, someone. Any ideas?
-The upcoming elections. I want Romney to win so bad. I know I'm letting fear run wild, but I do not want to see what Obama is capable of during the next four years. We need a President like Romney. PLEASE!
-I have a big paper due this week. It's on a "negative" relationship in my life. That's just exactly what I want to be thinking about right now. NOT! I have company coming, a house to clean, homework to do, food to buy, a program to make, people to call, kids to take care of...I don't want to think about a "negative" relationship. Sigh...
So I sit blogging, ignoring the dishes, laundry and other endless chores as I try to clear my head of clutter.
It's not working.
Maybe a hot shower will help.
Regardless, I better stop wasting time and get on with things.
I think I can...I think I can...I think I can...
3 comments:
I found your blog link through a friend's blog. I recently went back and finished my degree as an "older" student (I just turned 40). I am also the mother of 7 (3 of my own, and 4 step children). I understand that stress you are talking about. Oh, how I understand. I also understand that it doesn't matter how many other people "understand" it doesn't change your situation or make it easier.
I just want to encourage you with what a friend once told me- because when I looked at EVERYTHING I needed to get done all at once, I was so overwhelmed. She told me to stop and decide what the next step needed to be in that moment. Just a step at a time and you WILL get through it. I relied on prayer to get me through- constantly.
I would suggest something that I KNOW would lift your spirit and give you a new energy of hope- but it would require about 30 min. of your time. I know you are already swamped. It may be just what you need though- I just listened to a talk given at the Time Out For Women which was broadcast online. It was a talk by Emily Freeman (her presentation is the last one on the program, so just click to the end if you want to take a listen). This is the link: http://deseretbook.com/timeout/video_stream_info
As far as food for the baptism goes, I would do something super simple (chili/stew and rolls, or pizza). Have the kids make some cookies or brownies...
Good Luck. I'm cheering for you!
~Lisa
Lisa,
THANK YOU! It does help to know that sometime else understands. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and I will most definitely find 30 minutes to listen to that talk by Emily Freeman.
And thanks for the food suggestions. All of a sudden taco soup is sounding really good to me.
I feel better already! :)
OH Miss Nancy...I am right there with ya!All I can say is 12 more days and then I am done with student teaching and hopefully my house and family can return to a little bit more of a normal organized mess than a crazy,chaotic,too much to handle at times mess.I have so been thinking about you every time I drive past for my once a week class up there. Alls I can tell you is to let it go. You will never be caught up on laundry or dishes ( I say this with 6 loads of unfolded laundry sitting next to me, a sink overflowing with dishes, and a chapter test I need to write for my level 1 ASL students to take tomorrow.) But I did let it all go so that I could squeeze in a date night with my husband for a quick bite to eat...We do FHE on Sundays....Anyways hang in there....one month till the semester break and you can breathe for two weeks....Then maybe cut it down to one class. That is what I had to do for most of my education.
Maybe we can do lunch once we have semester break.
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