Losing It....Week 4

Here it is again, weigh-in day.

Let me just say that these last two weeks have been a bit more of a battle for me, mentally and physically. Here's why..

Excercise:

I lost my workout buddy. Since Ken and I started school again two weeks ago Ken can no longer afford the time to workout with me at night. It's been a bummer because I really enjoyed that time with him, now we're homework buddies instead. So, I have had to be my own motivator which really has been okay, just not as fun. I have been walking McKenna to school each day, then almost everyday when I get home I either jump on the treadmill for a run or I do a Zumba workout. I decided that running a 15 minute mile wasn't that big a deal, I can run longer now, but I get SO bored. I decided to speed it up a little to 4.5 mph which is about a 13 minute mile. I did that, even though I thought it might kill me. Then I decided I better it the road to make sure I could still run a mile outside without the help of a treadmill, so I hit the track, and am so happy to report that I ran the full 4 laps without stopping. Ken ran with me, he ran faster than me, BUT he had to stop once to rest, so HA! Some nights I try and squeeze in some sort of workout, but I need to be better about that. Life is SO busy!

Food:

Food makes me happy or food makes me sad. I hate that it has that much control over me. For instance, last Wednesday was Ken's birthday and I asked him if he wanted to go to lunch. Tyler was home sick from school that day so I could leave Daric and McKenna home for their naps and just take Aftyn with me. I was looking forward to a nice quiet lunch in a nice quiet restaurant. However, when I picked Ken up and asked him where he wanted to go he replied...In and Out Burger. INSTANT DISAPPOINTMENT! I couldn't say anything about his choice, because the point was that it was HIS choice, that's where he wanted to go for his birthday. In and Out Burger has only four things on their menu; burger, fries, soda, and shakes. None of which I could eat. I decided that only one day I week I would eat whatever I wanted and that day would be Friday's on our date night, this was a Wednesday and I didn't want to waste any calories on fast food burgers. So, I sat there without eating while he ate his lunch. It was KILLING me. I was starving. I wanted lunch. I literally felt sick for a minute. I wanted food, but not icky food, I just wanted a dang salad. Why can't In and Out serve salads on there menu? Ugh! My will-power won out over eating greasing burgers and fries, but it put me in a bad mood. I would prefer if food did not determine my mood, but it does sometimes. Sadly, it does.

Results:

-4 pounds

I can't say that I am not slightly disappointed. But 4 pounds is still for pounds and I have to be happy with that and keep plugging away.

Goal:

By my next weigh-in I would like to say that I've ran 2 straight miles. I think I'll also add a little Wii fit into my workout just for a little fun.