I often wonder if I am strong enough to always accept the Lords will for me...and simply say, "Thy will be done".
Today was one of those days.
Today, I attended a funeral. It was not for someone who had lived a good full life and was now rewarded by a timely passing. It was for a young mother. She left behind her eternal companion, and four small children. In early July, she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She was given 6-12 months to live. Her life was taken in less than 2 short months. This was not a disease for a woman in her 30's, it is an old mans cancer.
So, WHY?
I don't know, why. But, I do know that our Father in Heaven does. I have perfect faith that He knows what is best for Alicia and her young family. It was sad to say goodbye to Alisha today. It was even harder to see those that she left behind, for they have the harder trials ahead of them.
It is not hard for me to put myself in Alicia's shoes. We were just about the same age. So, through this process, I've asked myself could I do it? Could I know that I would die...leaving my husband, and my babies...and still say, "Not my will, but Thine be done". Could I bear to lose my eternal companion or my dear children, and say, it's okay, I trust in Thee. Would my faith be shaken? I don't know. I hope not, but I pray I will never have to find out. For right now my heart goes out to a family in Payson, who now has to learn to live without a huge piece of their world, their wife and mother...the one that loved them the best.
What a blessing it is the know about Heavenly Father's eternal plan for His children. Sometimes, life just doesn't seem fair, but there is One who knows whats best for us, and He will never leave us alone.
5 comments:
your blog explains how I've felt too about this. Would my faith be shaken??? I've thought about why our Heavenly Father gives us trials....it is to test our faith. It is for a reason. I know that I wouldn't be where I'm at in my life without loosing my mom. I grew in the gospel, my faith expanded. I don't know that I could have done it if my mom was here. It was a very large stride for me. But I persevered. Thank you for your blog. This past week has been rough. I wish I could have been there for her Funeral, she had a beautiful spirit. I miss being home.
That was beautiful.
And it is very true...I only hope that I would be able to put my faith solely in our Father in Heaven.
You are wonderful, Nancy! You strengthen me and I am so thankful for your example!
My goodness. My heart goes out to that family. Thank you for the reminder and the wake up call.
Alicia's funeral has really been a good reminder to look at my own life and ask myself some hard questions. Thank you for this blog. I have felt the same way. Life is so precious. Sometimes we get complacent about it.
I was so sad to hear about Alicia. My heart breaks for her family and I have a hard time remembering that Heavenly Father has reasons for everything. But He does. I hope they'll be able to heal soon. This was a great post, Nancy. I've asked myself the same questions and I know how I want to answer them.
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